Sunday, July 10, 2016

Mom's Birthday

Sometimes losing weight is just tough. It is even worse when on vacation. During this vacation we have celebrated both my brother and my mother's birthdays. Their birthdays are within three days of each other.

Today was my mother's birthday. We had a great time. We went out and saw a movie and had dinner. I have maybe been enjoying my vacation a little too much. I have gained weight. Quite a bit of weight.

I know that it seems ridiculous to try to blame my weight scale but it does some weird stuff sometimes. I felt like last time when I weighed, I did not really do that much to have dropped as much weight as the scale indicated. At any rate, here are the numbers.

Since my prior weigh in on July 5th I have gained four pounds even. My total weight loss to date is seven pounds. My current weight is 351 pounds.

This is discouraging but I know why I gained weight. Between birthday cake and ice cream, soda, delicious home cooking, an occasional meal out, it is not a recipe for weight loss. Plus it has been rainy the past couple of days and so I have not been able to do any activity. I am slightly conflicted. I mean, on the one hand, I tell myself that I should be able to enjoy my vacation. On the other hand, there are always things going on in life that provide us with opportunity to make excuses about what we are eating.

I know that I need to start watching what I eat so that I can drop some weight. I suppose now I should reset my short term goal back to 350 pounds. Losing an achieved goal is always hard. Still, I need to press on. My next weigh in will be July 15th. I am leaving Idaho to return to Arizona on that day but I will try to weigh in before we head out. Should I fail to do so, the weigh in will be when I get back home. Until next time, goodbye!

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Idaho!

I arrived in the beautiful state of Idaho on July 2nd. We had safe travels although there was some fun wind and rain just north of Las Vegas. I always love the drive.

Since arriving, we had a very nice barbeque on the 4th and went down to Orofino to watch a firework show. It has been so relaxing being up here in the fresh air and the weather has just been a real treat after Arizona's heat wave the week prior to us leaving. Arizona and heat wave, bet you never thought you would hear those words in the same sentence. Phoenix was pretty close to 120 degrees that week. I think the high here so far has been 82, at least that I have noticed. Today has been very cool. I love it!

I have kept myself busy helping the family out a little bit. I always enjoy being able to help out with technology. I had updated my mother's laptop to Windows 10. Then she accidentally cracked the LCD screen. Boo! I can fix that but the laptop is older and not sure it is really worth it.

Today and yesterday I have been helping dad out with the farming. We just have a small hayfield up here that we cut and bail. We had some trouble with one of the tractors the other day. Just a dead battery but that can really be frustrating at times. Dad and my brother Craig ran the bailer and I ran the swather. The hay is so thick this year that the swather would bog down even running the tractor in 1st gear with the torque amplifier at max. Some small problems with the tractor pulling the swather too as I would have to jump off and blow back through the fuel lines every so often. Nothing I can't handle but I tell you, when you are on the plump side, you get a nice workout hopping on and off a tractor all day!

That is probably more info than anyone really needed and or maybe even wanted to know. I better get to the actual weight loss numbers. Since my previous weigh in on July 1st I have lost almost three (2.8) pounds. That brings my total weight loss to eleven pounds even. My current weight is 347 pounds.

Obviously I am pretty happy with these numbers. I have not had a lot of soda while here in Idaho so that is a plus. I have also managed to keep my calorie consumption down. The fourth of July was a little out of control but I balanced that out by under eating the rest of the days.

The next weigh in will be July 10th. My short term goal of 340 pounds is still out of reach for the next weigh in but I am hopeful that I might make that goal by the end of the month. I hope that everyone had a great fourth of July! Until next time, so long for now!

Friday, July 1, 2016

Goal!!!!!

Wow! How exciting! I really did not expect this. To be honest, I did not eat very well yesterday and was feeling kind of bummed about it because I thought I was going to gain weight today as a result. I did work hard though since the previous weigh in. Maybe I would have lost a lot more weight had I not made some poor choices yesterday. Maybe this is just one of those examples of calorie cycling where I am not letting my body adjust to my calorie goals. Either way, I met my first weight loss goal!

Since my previous weigh in on June 27th I have lost a shade over two (2.2) pounds. That brings my total weight loss to date up to a little more than eight (8.2) pounds. My current weight is 349.8 pounds. My first goal was to weigh less than 350 pounds. I just barely made it!

I am getting ready to leave for my vacation to Idaho and so I probably need to keep this short. As I had mentioned, I am so shocked to have made my goal. There were really just a few days between weigh ins. While it is always fun to meet a goal, it is important to keep my eye on the prize. I cannot let up now. My new short term goal will be 340 pounds. Just to recap, my long term goal is to weigh in below 200 pounds. By keeping both short and long term goals, I am hoping to keep myself focused on moving forward.

For anyone else on this journey with me, don't be discouraged with set backs. We cannot control the past. We can only control what we do now. I am writing this down for myself also. I am happy with my results today, but maybe the next weigh in will not be as positive. Sometimes, the effort will not match the results and that is not the end of the world. That effort may show up down the road. The body is a funny thing and doesn't always respond right away. I know it is easy to get discouraged, but like some other things in life, positive actions don't always produce immediate results.

My next weigh in will (hopefully) be from the beautiful state of Idaho. I cannot wait to get on the road. I love to drive and spend time with my kids and parents. I envy those of you that live close to your parents. As I travel the road of life I am reminded that we are all finite. I have more body aches and pains than I ever did before. There will come a day when I cannot pick up the phone and hear my parents voices.

By the same token, that is the exact reason that I must do what I can to drop this weight. There will come a day when my girls will not be able to pick up the phone and hear my voice. I MUST DO WHATEVER I CAN TO PREVENT THAT DAY FROM BEING SOONER RATHER THAN LATER!!! I want to see my kids grow up and have children of their own. I want to live a long time and maybe even be a great grandfather! That won't happen if I don't live my life with intention.

I apologize if this post seems preachy. I just get excited when I get to go to my hometown, see my parents, and appreciate the scenery. Where I am from in Idaho is a beautiful place and I love it. Life is a beautiful thing and I don't want to waste it. Safe travels for those of you also hitting the road this summer. Have fun and enjoy time with friends and family! I look forward to next time. Goodbye.

PS. I also apologize if this post is all over the place. My mind is in a lot of different places trying to remember to pack everything and getting ready for the trip in general. Isn't it funny, I said the post would be short. Haha.

Monday, June 27, 2016

Post Camping Update

I committed to weighing in upon returning from my camping trip. I will keep this post small and to the point. Since my last weigh in on June 20th I have nearly lost a pound (0.8). This brings my total weight loss since starting this journey to six pounds. My current weight is 352 pounds even.

I am not going to pretend that I was doing my best on this camping trip. The main issue was that I was drinking quite a bit of soda. I did mix in water and as much La Croix as I could take though. I also tried to limit myself to one helping at meal times, but I must say, the food was so delicious that I did have seconds a couple times.

I was a bit more active than usual as one would expect on a camping trip. One either end of the trip you have set and tear down of the campsite. That is not very strenuous but can be more sweat inducing than working inside an air conditioned building.

I was concerned that I wouldn't lose any weight this time so when I stepped on the scale I was quite relieved and maybe a touch surprised. That being said, I need to focus on the goal ahead. 350 pounds is as close as it has been on this journey. Given the short amount of time until next weight in, I am skeptical that I will be able to achieve it.

I am leaving for my annual trip to Idaho to visit the folks this coming week. That might mess with my weigh in schedule. I think I will still be able to weigh in the 1st and if I do then my weigh in routine would be maintained. Check back soon for my next weigh in and hopefully more good news! Later my friends.

Thursday, June 23, 2016

Point Of Clarification

I have had at least two of my friends kind of inquire about one of the things that I said in my last blog post. Also, I will be out camping on the day that I would ordinary weigh in so I won't be able to do it until I get back. I thought I would throw up this mini blog post in the meantime to clarify what I meant. Here is the paragraph in question.

"This weigh in, I know exactly why my results came in the way that they did. I ate out several times and on Father's day, we went out and saw a movie and enjoyed popcorn and a coke. I have mentioned several times in the past that I don't really like making excuses. I do believe that sometimes, you need to enjoy some small things in life. That is not an excuse to go nuts all the time and not do the right thing. But sometimes, it is nice to enjoy time with friends and family. Also, I do feel that this can recharge the body for the journey ahead."

They felt like it sounded like I was kind of endorsing overeating. I am glad that they brought this up as it made me realize that perhaps what I meant was not as clear as it should have been. But I think it is good to have an open and frank discussion even if people do not agree with me once I clarify my position, at least I can better define exactly what I meant.

So, first, obviously I did overeat to some extent or I would not have gained weight. Part of the problem was the frequency. I believe that we went out at restaurants maybe two or three times. I forget now exactly. To be clear, I am not saying that you should do that. What I was saying was, I think that it is good to go out and have a meal once in a while. Let me explain the reasons that I think that is a good thing and some of these are strictly from my experience.

1) Burnout: You have to be careful with this one. It is easy to use this as an excuse to not eat healthy. At the same time, from my own experience, if I stick steadfast to a set amount of calories day after day and never deviate from that plan, I will eventually burn out. I am not trying to use that as an excuse. It is just what I have observed happening to me.

2) Calorie Cycling: This is an interesting one to me. I have read some articles online that discuss calorie cycling. That is basically where, and I am probably butchering this explanation, if you stick to a set amount of calories all the time, your body adjusts to that and it actually makes it harder to lose weight. The recommendation is to vary your calorie consumption so that your body never has a chance to adjust to a set, defined number of calories being consumed. I can tell you that there have been multiple times in my previous weight loss journey where I would hit a plateau big time and just couldn't seem to move forward. This was at a time when I was sticking to a defined calorie plan fairly religiously. When I went started varying my calorie consumption it allowed me to break through that plateau and start to make progress again. This happened to me on at least two separate instances and I am not talking about small bumps in the road either. I mean like being stuck for months at a time being obsessive about calorie consumption and not seeing the needle move until I changed it up.

Again, I definitely over did it with regards to what I did wrong with the last weigh in. I did not mean to endorse what I did as justifiable. What I was trying to say was, I think it is good to go out and have a nice meal out with family once in a while. Everyone has to choose what is right for them. I did not mean that when you go out with family that you go nuts either. When my girls and I went to the movie we split a medium popcorn three ways and had probably 20 ounces or less of Coke. To me, that is not all that bad. The number of times that I had gone out was what cause me to gain weight and that was bad.

I hope that this post does not come across as me trying to defend my actions or anything like that. I truly love the friends that pointed this out to me. I know that they only have a desire to see me succeed. I value their input in my life. I only wanted to clarify because I think that, for those of us with a serious amount of weight to lose, it can be a daunting task. I do not think it is the end of the world to go to a restaurant once in a while.

That being said, my friend's point is that we should stop thinking of food in terms of reward. Certain holidays are even focused on food. Thanksgiving and Christmas being obvious examples. This is a great point and one that we need to consider. Youth sports teams win a game and what happens, coach takes them out to pizza. We do tend to use food as a point of celebration and that does perhaps reinforce in us the idea that when you achieve something, food should be part of the reward. Food for thought? Haha.

I appreciate my friends pointing this out. Hopefully I was able to better define what I meant and clarify at the same time where I messed up. Keep the feedback coming, even if you disagree with me. I love the thought provoking issues being brought up and trust me, I am certainly open to the prospect of me being wrong. It would be foolish of me to think that I have things figured out. I would obviously not be in this situation if I was an expert. Take care my friends and until next time, goodbye for now!

Monday, June 20, 2016

Fear Of Failure

I struggled a lot in my late teens and early adult years with being a perfectionist. One of the ways in which this manifested itself was that I would often get frustrated if I was trying to do something and I could not do it extremely well. Perhaps it could even be classified as borderline OCD. In order to ensure that things were done extremely well, I would set up systems and rules for things that ordinarily would not need rules. It is kind of funny for me to say this because anyone that knows me very well knows that in many of areas of my life, I am not a very organized person. I am selective in what I care about. Personally, I think that this is because I know that I cannot do everything extremely well in my life so I tend to focus on those that I can do well. There may also be a bit of "fear of failure" in there as well mixed with a nice helping of needing to be in control.

Fear of failure and the need to be in control can be enemies of losing weight. When I get frustrated because I am not doing something well, it is all too easy to give up on it altogether. That is probably pretty common for everyone but when coupled with the issues I mention above, compound the problem. That is one of the reasons that I write this blog. It can be an outlet for me to be completely open about my failures. The old saying is true, nothing ventured, nothing gained. Other times, despite dedication to the task at hand, the results do not line up with the effort invested.

This weigh in, I know exactly why my results came in the way that they did. I ate out several times and on Father's day, we went out and saw a movie and enjoyed popcorn and a coke. I have mentioned several times in the past that I don't really like making excuses. I do believe that sometimes, you need to enjoy some small things in life. That is not an excuse to go nuts all the time and not do the right thing. But sometimes, it is nice to enjoy time with friends and family. Also, I do feel that this can recharge the body for the journey ahead.

So, what is the damage? I have gained eight tenths of a pound (0.8) since my previous weigh in June 15th. My total weight loss now stands at a little more than five (5.2) pounds. My current weight is 352.8 pounds.

While I would hate to say that I am happy with those results, I will say that given the frequency of my meals out, it not as bad as it could have been. Still, I am eager to see my weight drop below my short term goal of 350 pounds. I am close. Now that I have enjoyed a little break so to speak, it is time to get back up and get to the task at hand. Thanks for the encouragement. Don't give up on me. Check back soon!

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

But Wait, There's Less!

The last time that I updated my blog with a weight loss post, I had mentioned that I was very motivated. To be completely honest, I am always nervous after an update of this nature. It kind of adds a lot of pressure. I don't ever want to follow up a post where I talk about being motivated with a post about how I gained weight.

Fortunately, the effort and motivation paid dividends for this weigh in! Since my previous weigh in post on June 10th, I have lost an even two pounds. That brings my total weight loss to an even six pounds. My current weight is 352 pounds.

I am pretty pleased to have lost two pounds. It is definitely not easy to lose this much weight in just five days. I also know that it will be difficult to continue to lose weight at this pace. So much of weight loss is psychological. Stress and feeling sorry for myself can be my worst enemies. That is why I try to stay level headed and realistic about my expectations. There will be times I gain weight even after putting in some serious effort. Staying focused and setting goals will be my plan to overcome these perceived setbacks.

My knee has been getting a bit better and that makes it a lot easier to get in more steps and activity in general. Still, I owe the majority of this success to managing my calories. I have been much more careful about how much I eat. I am still not eating super healthy but I am making better choices. It helps when friends hold me accountable.

I feel like I need to set a goal now that I have been more consistent in my weight loss journey. To that end, I have always been a believer in having both short term and long term goals. My very near term (hopefully) goal is to fall below 350 pounds. I am almost there! Just another three pounds to go! My long term goal is to drop below 200 pounds. That goal is 153 pounds away. By focusing on the near term goal, I hope to not be overwhelmed by the sheer magnitude of the long term goal. I know that I say it a lot, but the journey truly has to be taken day by day. I also like another analogy for overcoming something that seems insurmountable. It goes: How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time! I find that one more humorous given the weight loss nature of this blog post.

My next weigh in will be June 20th. It would be great to achieve my short term weight loss goal at that time, but realistically, I am not sure that is attainable. I could make it happen by not eating at all but that is not a good plan. Far better to lose weight slowly. I appreciate all of the kind words of encouragement that I have been receiving. It means a lot to me. Hopefully blogging about my journey helps someone else, even if only in some small way. Until next time, goodbye!